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Geeze. Life in the 21st C is more accelerated than I thought. Thank god I grew up in the 20th C where none of us got past the mental age of 15. . . Well, I didn't anyway. 

Indeed. I mean I'm your generation's version of a 40 year old, so yeah I have the maturity of a 15 year old too :p

Did they actually tell you that you sucked? I thought your articles were entertaining. I honestly never read anyone elses except yours and Joe's on there. I gave destructoid a chance, but the asshole ratio was quite high, and I'm not ever typing another fucking word there again. 

You do have a lot of shit stirring in your life for such a young age. I think your mind is just trying to parse it all and figure out what to do without going fully mental. I've noticed that you post a lot heavy metal or else comedy bits, like you're either trying to drown out the bullshit or else find humor in fucked up situations. 

I always gravitated towards the dark side of things anyway. Not that I'm a psychopath or anything, but I just don't care about things enough to be angry or happy either way, which might be worse.  

You really should have a featured column somewhere online. So many untalented bastards in the gaming journo world.  I'll always make time to write and comment. 

No, they just cut a lot of writers who weren't contibuting as much and bringing in some people who could contribute more regularly. They said they'd be happy to give me a reference, but since me and some others were becoming too irregular we had to leave. It's fair enough, they are trying to get a new site off the ground, and it's hard to do that without regular content.

 And yeah, I don't understand people who are offended by dark humour. SUre, it may not be for everyone, but is a coping mechanism for so many people. I mean watching the Justin Beiber roast with that comedian who kept joking about his dad dying in 9/11 was awesome, but a ton of people were offended by it. Fuck them.

 And yeah, I've been thinking of trying to join this site as a staff member for a while, but didn't know whether I could juggle both Plus10 and this. Well, I guess that problem is solved now.

I didn't know who Louis C.K. was, so I looked it up.  I wasn't that familiar with most of his work and then I saw Pootie Tang.  The world needs more people in it to bring us movies like Pootie Tang.  I hope you're working on a Pootie Tang like movie.  Might just cheer you up. 

I don't know what the fuck pootie tang is, but you should check out his show: "Louie". It's absurd, dark, and hysterical, plus you can jump in almost anywhere since there's little continuity in anything other than the fourth season.

Having first hand knowledge when it comes to depression I know it's not anything you can snap someone out of. It isn't born of anything logical or reasonable. All I can say is get it looked after man. It can't rain every day.

As for your writing you're great at it. Your stuff has humour and purpose even if the purpose winds up being just to make people laugh. 

Anyway, need more coffee, talk later.

Thanks man! Yeah, depression is confusing and stupid.

 And everyone needs more coffee. It's more necessary than food, water and shelter. It's what separates us from the animals! 

I've suffered a lot from depression over the course of my life.  It's amazing I survived frankly.  But with medication (which I know is not for everyone, but it is for me) and a relaxed lifestyle, I'm doing pretty good.  I am pretty balanced mood wise these days which is good. 

Never tried the meds. I've always stated I don't want them. They might help, but honestly, most of the time I need sadness to function. When I'm happy, my writing sucks, my music sucks, and my jokes suck haha.

Man, Plus10Damage asked you to leave? That's kind of shitty. I mean, life gets in the way sometimes and you just can't contribute the way you want to. I wouldn't want to lose a writer just because they get a bit behind. Sorry to hear that.

Anyway, I'm glad you're back here posting regardless of anything and I hope you get past that depression shit. I've never struggled with it myself, but I've been with or around people who have and it's a seriously awful thing. I'm sure I speak for the whole community when I say that we're here for you.

And, if you do get out of that funk and want to contribute on a more official basis somewhere again, feel free to drop me a line. We'd be happy to have you.

Thanks man, that means a lot!

Honestly, I'd been thinking of leaving Plus 10 Damage and trying to join this site for a while, so I might take you up on that offer in a bit. How much content do you require a week and of what sort of quality/topic? I mean, obviously gaming, but how much news/reviews/editorials are expected?

Honestly, things have been a bit slow around here and I've been quite busy trying to finish up my game, so anything you can bring to the table from a review or editorial standpoint would be phenomenal. Love having fresh opinions on the site and seeing content on current games come up, so just let me know!

EDIT - And since that was kind of a side-stepping answer, let's say at least an article a week - but I'm not going to hold you to it. PixlBit writers are empowered to write what they want when they have something to say and aren't writing it just for the sake of doing so.

Let's be honest, this isn't a pro-publication and nobody (including me) is making money on it. I'm in it for the fun of it and once you start taking it too serious, the fun kind of disappears. If that's cool with you, then you'll hang just fine with this crew.

As a frequent user and visitor to the site, I endorse @whatsacow's candidacy 100%. Other sites are just way too P.C. nice and vanilla. I think @whatsacow can bring a little edge to pixlbit like the olden game journo days. Plus10damage lost a great asset honestly. 

Alright then. Sign me up! How do we go about doing this?

I'll drop you a PM and we'll go from there!

Sounds good look forward to it.

Hey dude, sorry to hear about the not-so-happy trails from Plus10damage.  I'm even sorrier to hear about the struggle with depression.  While I've been medically diagnosed or need meds to keep my head in order....I still get knocked around by feeling depressed on and off, and it sucks.

But there's always a light at the end of the tunnel.  PixlBit is one of the brighter spots in my life.  I'm happy to hear that you'll be around more frequently now that you're freed up to do so.  I've also added you to my follow list so I can better keep up with your posts.

Thanks for the follow! And the support. I gathered a fair few people around here would struggle with it, it's something that seems to be drawn to people who write or have artistic desires. Sucks that you're struggling with it. I've always turned down the meds, but I've never tried them, so I don't actually know how well they work.

 And pixlbit is pretty damn awesome. I shall follow you back too.

My condolences man and like Nick said, we're here for you if you need anything. Depression really does suck.

Thanks man. Means a lot :D

It's easy to get depressed when you're living a lie, and that lie doesn't even provide purpose. Our whole social, political, economic and cultural construct is artificial, and some, no many, people can't adapt to it on a subconscious level. The generations who have followed the the baby booomers have been coddled, lied to, weakened,  distracted, indulged, sexually confused, etc. It started before the internet age, which is just another distraction, another toy to be played with. A child in elementary school today is simply the end result of processes that started 50 years ago.

But see, we laughed at the older generations and their values and ways. Values similar to those which sustained cultures around the globe for millenia, mind you.  We thought we were so much smarter than these people, because "enlightentment" or some such delusional garbage. But, to paraphrase Fight Club, they lived through the Great Depression, which was an economic phenomenon. Our Great Depression is our own lives.

Actually, you are part of Louis C.K.s "generation" when it comes to this. Everyone born after the 60s, basically. You've come up in the same consumerist maelstrom. You've been programmed with the same PC and social theory bullshit, and where is it getting us, really? As a white male, you've been taught that you are the devil, responsible for other's misery, the subjugator of women  and children, bringers of war and tragedy, colonizers, slavers, rapists; in pop culture, you are depicted as incompetent husbands next to your wise wives, secretly homosexual, out of touch, unhip, etc. etc. This started from the moment you could understand words and images, and it's only ramped up since then.  Your leaders and your educators and your entertainers have lead you on this road to cultural, emotional and spiritual ruin.

But whatever, that's enough lecturing from me.  I've just scratched the surface, but no one listens anyways.  I'm moving to Texas and voting for Putin in the next election.

It's Plus10's loss, and besides it looks like from the comments you might have found a nice spot with the Pixlbit crew.

As for depression, I don't know much about it, but I do know you that you should get some help. As much as we like your writing right now, we'd like a well Whatsacow. 

Indeed I am.

 And eh. I've been to counselors before, and they were helpful to some degree, but at the same time most of them just told me shit I already knew.

I know how ya feel, when I disappear that's normally why. I get overwhelmed then the depression comes and proceeds to stomp the shit out of me so I'm not only stressed and on edge but also stuck to the fucking floor like a confused mess. I'm happy though you will be around here more, I like reading your stuff and glad to be able to continue. Keep going, you got this!

Well. It seems the comment I replied to you a week ago got swallowed up in the ether. Oh well. Thanks for the kind words. Sucks that you have to deal with it as well, but I guess gaming and especially writing seems to draw sufferers.

Hmm, maybe the swearing doesn't help...? Glad to have you back, though I wish things were better for you. I do think the internet has a lot to do with a premature "loss of innocence." All the ugliness of life and people is right there for anyone to discover. But whatever. I saw in earlier comments that you'll be contributing to the site more, maybe in an official capacity. Looking forward to it.

Yep. As you can see from this comment, I am now an official staff writer. I posted a blog about it a while ago. And thanks man.